He is with you

"There's a time to live and a time to die..
there's a time to laugh and a time to cry.
There's a time for war and a time for peace.
There's a hand to hold in the worst of these.

He is with you when your faith is dead,
and you can't even get out of bed.
Or your husband doesn't kiss you anymore
He is with you when your baby is gone and
your house is still and your heart's a stone
cryin' God what did you do that for?
He is with you.

There's a time for yes and a time for no,
There's a time to be angry and a time to let go.
There's a time to run and a time to face it.
There is love to see you through all of this.

He is with you in the conference room
when the world is coming down on you
and your wife and kids don't know you anymore
and He is with you in the ICU when the doctor's don't know what to do.
And it scares you to the core,
He is with you

We may weep for a time,
but joy will come in the morning
The morning light.

He is with you when your kids are grown
when there's too much space and you feel alone
and you're worried if you got it right or wrong.
Yes, He is with you when you've given up on ever finding your true love
someone who feels like home,
He is with you.

When nothing else is left
and you take your final breath,
He is with you."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2WRjwgsOdo

I heard this song by Mandisa Friday morning on the way to work...and it was like someone had been spying on me.

Sometimes the prayer's we praying do not get answered as quickly as we would like or in the way we would hope...and it can make you feel like "where is God while I'm going through all of this? I need God with skin on down here to show me what's going on!!!"
And for someone who works in :30 second intervals all day at work..that "waiting" thing does not go over well.

Wouldn't it be nice if praying worked like emails? Pray, send, get the response as soon as it lands in God's email, He clicks reply...hopefully with the answer you want and then you're on your way. BUT IT DOESN'T..we have to learn patience...trust..and all that makes us lean on Him instead of ourselves.

I don't like waiting...for anything..seriously..example: just a week ago I got a tip about a HUGE breaking story an hour before we hit the air..but had to get confirmation from several sources before I could run with it..20 or so phone calls later and about 30 minutes of sweet talking sources for more info..it was confirmed and then it was a race to beat the competition. I threw the facts together into a script of some sort, chunked off my shoes under my desk, ran down the hall , threw it at the anchor during the live 5 show, ran back down the hall and slid inside the booth , took over someone else's show, all while they're in the middle of a live shot for a different story..within 15 seconds..we had a plan and we hit the air..beating the competition by 15 minutes! whew!!! It was aweseome!

But God doesn't work on breaking news time frame..what I see is right now..He sees the entire picture and He's not budging on my requests..not even an inch..I'm "here"..trying to get "there"..but He's not moving me..and so it feels like I'm stuck in neutral. And no matter how many opportunities have come my way, He keeps closing doors..and it sometimes it feels like I'm alone or He's left. And I've been telling him about it, too. Asking Him to draw me nearer so I can be more like Him and feel His presence..and then my devotions come in and they're loud and clear: "wait on the Lord"...W-A-I-T..that qualifies as a four letter word in my book!!!

And then He sends me Mandisa singing "He is with you"..soooooooooooo, I'll keep praying, and waiting, and hoping and remembering "He is with ME"....and you, too.

Blessings,
Janie