"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and mind through Christ Jesus." - Phillipians 4:6-7
Bella kitty is at complete peace, sleeping soundly stretched across my lap...anxious for nothing.
I snapped a photo of her while she was doing this last week and when I looked at the photo, arms out, legs out, completely at peace..I thought: this is how God wants me to be..not worried about things...at peace stretched out in His lap. Bella doesn't wonder where her next meal will come from or for that matter she doesn't wonder about any needs..because she relies on us to take care of her..and we do..along with Molly and Alex.
But, I'm not a cat and I'm fully aware of everything going on around me and I get anxious. Where and when will I get the "dream" job? How to keep Bryan safe and healthy while he manages work and school? Are our parents alright?
Life is complicated for humans... cats get to lay around, play, purr, get petted ..and have no idea that everything comes with responsibility. Would I like to trade places with Bella? hmmmmm.... NO! I don't want to be a cat! But I would like to lay around, play, purr, get petted whenever I look cute!!! ha! ha! And that no anxious thing..Wow! That's a biggie! How do you do that? I mean, really? Is there anyone out there that has that mastered? I have a PhD in anxiousness.
Yes, we chose to leave the comfort of our "old" life for a new one but it has been a lot harder than I ever imagined. I've had glimpses of how it can be..but there are forces beyond my control that stop things from happening as quickly as I had hoped. And I am not a person who likes to wait..life is short. That's what started all of this...not wanting to waste time floating through life but actually living it ..feeling it...breathing it in deeply..every minute of it..but right now I feel like I'm marking time..anxiously waiting for the next door to open..and no matter how hard I try..it remains closed. So, I get more anxious..
Which brings me to this verse I have written in the back of my Bible. Trying to live it and not just let it be words on a page..Be anxious for nothing ( I'm working on it, minute by minute)making my requests know with thanksgiving ( thankful for Jesus, family/friends, home, shelter, food, job, life) (requesting:happy/healthy family& friends, reporter job)..and waiting for God's peace to guard my heart and mind while I wait for Him to answer...
So I guess for now, I'll TRY and be more like Bella and Be.... Anxious ..for nothing...
Blessings,
Janie
